It can be quite shocking to see ‘that’ case coming to light on the news today and hearing about how so many people were affected by ‘his’ abusive behavior, that goes back for so many years.
I cannot help but be reminded of my own challenges in this area and remember how it felt to be treated that way. Not only as it happened but the consequences it had through out my life, as it affected my relationships and my ability to be fully present in the world.
I am also reminded of the journey I have had to take to release myself from the past and to begin to create a new story for myself. I could stay attached to that old story, believing that was who I was and always would be, or I could make significant changes in my life and my attitudes towards myself, so as to re-create myself time and time again. As each story began to lessen its grip, I would find new and creative ways to liberate myself, dancing myself free and expressing all that I am.
It has meant sharing my healing work more fully with others, it has meant writing my story and having it published, it has meant putting myself on stage, in front of cameras and being interviewed for wonderful projects. I have learn’t to speak out, which has led me to speak about many topics on personal development and new growth, if I could speak out about the worst scenarios in my life, I felt I could share many other parts of who I was as well.
Because of my own abuse and determination to heal it, I may never have been in touch with the warrior I am with such determination to mend my life! Getting to know my own warrior rather than remain a victim is what has given me the most freedom.
I sometimes wonder who I might have been had I not been abused, I have often wished it never happened, but having learnt to accept and move on means it does not matter to me, I am who I am and have no desire now to change it. I’ve made mistakes, not always getting things just as they should be, I was very late having a career and a life I could call my own, I struggled to regain my own body and sexuality, but it has taught me so much and now I can fully empathise with others when they share their stories with me.
My passion is to help others grow and transform, giving themselves permission to speak out, so this crime may become less and less. We will always have our challenges, but the more we speak out the less possible it will be for others to be hurt in the way we were, then our story will not lie dormant inside us as stagnant energy causing dis-ease, but will flow freely to create expressive and free lives, our innocence is reclaimed!