We’ve begun to film our movie. I have no idea the direction it is going to take, but after talking with a script writer yesterday whose writing just led to a very beautiful film, I was
privileged to be at the premier for last night, who said ‘just keep writing and being honest, write from the personal story’ I felt more of an ease with what I have been doing.
I love true story’s, in fact there are very few films I watch that are not some how true to life. I want depth and meaning, else I quickly become distracted and turn off the screen. I was not brought up to watch television much. We were allowed Blue Peter and very little else. I felt deprived sometimes but now happy that I can take or leave that box in the corner of the room and although my own children watch a fair amount of it, they too had very little as they grew up. So it has felt strange for me to now be working on a rather large project with my partner Ben, as we begin the production of the story of Elizabeth. Ms’Guided Angel. With so little knowledge of the film world and its ‘making of’ I recognize my naivety in it all, yet a massive amount of enthusiasm. I know it is very much about the journey for me personally and the creativity involved, but the end result is equally important and it is here that the message will be told more effectively.
How effective can we be in the world? I want to get a message out there fully, not via another documentary, but by telling a beautiful yet tragic story of one girls life, knowing it could be the story of many young girls lives. So I am taking the advise of the writer I spoke with last night, I am writing the truth, the honesty from my heart, I’ve no need to
add or take away anything and as I see it beginning to manifest itself, in a moving collage on the screen in the editing suit, my heart opens even more and I live through some of those moments all over again. I expect others will be touched by it all and maybe some will begin the healing process of letting go of such stories and living with them in a healthier way.
Ms’Guided Angel has her story, she has a lot to say and wants to be heard, who am I not to give her that voice and every opportunity to speak out. Childhood abuse is so often kept quiet, the shame it can bring on a family is intolerable, it is hushed and quieted, but the consequences of that are huge, the repercussions through the lives of many are so damaging. There is work to be done to educate those who would abuse, there is work to be done in helping people to re-member them selves and move on. My journey was a lonely path in many ways, my intention is to help those who feel silenced to speak out and release that voice, that scream, to dance that dance and find their feet, to share with others that they were wounded too and the knowledge that it has to stop. To let those who would break those boundaries know that we will keep silent no more!
Caroline Carey Writings, Prose & Poetry 