My favorite Clan

I notice the quiet a little bit more                              Photo 2007me kids

from different smells

and towels on the floor

a slight lonely feeling

from corners of rooms

and a wondering

have they gone too soon?

are they ok? I ask every day


Thirty six years of keeping a look-out,

thirty six years of making sure,

Cooking and cleaning, whose socks are these?

Don’t come home too late,

calls from the door,

well just because I need my sleep too!

and preferably not at half past four

when door knocks and wondering happens no more


I notice the quiet with a different tone

knowing it wont be disturbed with a yell

or an argument, or two

a demand or a clue

as to what is for dinner if I can be bothered

as if I could not

as the ages increase its not only my chore.


But the quiet I know is here to stay

for longer

as empty the house grows each day

and realizations to living alone

are made from the memory of what was once known

and only known as the years went by

and home life was built in the sweetness of eyes

that look endearing

when each time we pass

or frown at the voice

of a tricky command


Never known is a life without that sweet touch

or a moment of heart felt feeling as such

never before in a home without kids

of one age or other

up to their tricks!

But time must move on and they fly from the nest

and leave a silence with food of your own

fridge stays full longer

less washing to do

and the bathroom certainly has a new view


The silence is changing the world of the mind

thinking is easier and theres time on my side

no need to rush home

or make separate plans

but gather the memories

of my favorite clan

knowing their only a phone call away

and still I do miss them – every day


kids                              Photo 2008






And now 2016 🙂


About Caroline Carey

Caroline is an English Grandmother and an aspiring crone~elder, an author of four books, a speaker and innovative and creative teacher, offering her work via workshops and gatherings online as well as internationally. By adapting the religious education insisted on by her family, she was able to recognise her own innate connection to God/Spirit and has been on a spiritual path since childhood. She is a champion of music, dance and poetry as healing tools since she was four years old and developed an innate understanding of the soul’s journey, a connection to physical embodiment through movement, theatre and the creative arts. Her work is harmonious with nature. Her journey has manifested as her own personal training into eldership and crone-hood, carrying the wisdom needed for stability and balance in individuals, relationships, families and communities. Mothering her six, now adult, children, gave Caroline the art of play, creativity, story-telling and opened up the deep surrender and unconditional love that motherhood can bestow. Caroline has trained in many modalities of dance, therapeutic and spiritual teacher trainings since 1986. She is a writer who has published her autobiography and four other books about her spiritual work. Her latest book, 'Middle Earth Wisdom' will be published soon. She lives in UK with her husband Ben Cole, a film-maker, a director who works with men’s initiation groups. They often offer work together, incorporating dance, presentation and film. Caroline is: A mother and grandmother A writer and poet A dancer A spiritual life coach A catalyst for change She is available to you for guidance
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